Shrinking the Silence

Sharing a voice on living with rare disease

Making decisions for myself, not my illness — November 28, 2017
Shrinking and acceptance — November 21, 2017

Shrinking and acceptance

I call this post shrinking and acceptance because both of these things have happened with my desmoid tumour recently! My tumour has been stable since the start of the year, not to mention continually shrinking, and this has helped me accept it as part of my body that will probably always be there, but now I feel confident that it can be controlled and I am under great care.

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My A-Z of having a rare disease — September 18, 2017

My A-Z of having a rare disease

Appointments and adding a new doctor to my list every year.

Blood tests, so many that I no longer flinch when the needle goes in.

Confusion,  navigating the confusing world of the unknown.

Dehydration
and still taking a long time to realise when I am dehydrated.

Enduring the hard days.

Fatigue, learning that fatigue is much more than being tired.

Grief for my life before diagnosis.

Hope for more research, treatment options and my desmoid to disappear.

Intuition, knowing my own body and when something doesn’t feel right.

Juggling multiple things at once.

Kindness of people around me.

Laughter, it’s the best medicine for me.

Maturity, learning so much more about myself and what I’m capable of.

Nurses, being under great care every time I go for treatment, a procedure or surgery.

Operations and recovery.

Positivity, trying to be positive whenever I can.

Questions, endless questions.

Research, I’m great at searching google these days.

Support from my family, friends, nurses and doctors.

Trials, when you’re rare, you need to take experimental drug options that are available.

Ureteric stents to protect my kidneys.

Vacations to have something to look forward to (I would usually say holidays but I’ve already used H!).

Work, feeling lucky I can still work full time and have that routine.

X-rays and scans, “breathe in and hold your breath”….”breathe”.

Yearly endoscopies to check for polyps.

Zzzzzz on the days I need extra sleep.

When there’s no end in sight — April 19, 2017
Starting a treatment with no name — March 27, 2017
The four things that keep me going — March 15, 2017

The four things that keep me going

The last couple of months have been hard for me. I think last year I was in the groove of things, I had recovered really well from my bowel surgeries and even when I got the news that my desmoid tumour had come back, I was feeling positive and treatment didn’t seem to daunting. It soon started growing really aggressively and for a few months it was pretty scary and I did wonder if it would ever stop growing. Continue reading

You’re making poor choices for a 22 year old — March 10, 2017
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