I’ve just had my longest stint of no treatment – 6 weeks. Sounds dramatic but really I’ve just missed one cycle as I now do it every 3 weeks. It wasn’t by choice, there was just a delay in getting more stock sent over.
It’s been pretty amazing having a break, I even went in for a checkup with my oncologist a week or so ago and it didn’t have that same familiar feeling which was a great feeling. But what surprised me was that I couldn’t completely switch off. It makes sense, I guess, as I’ve been on fortnightly treatment for 3 years now.. with a few weeks off for holidays here and there. I’ve essentially got into a routine, and any change to that I’ve realised can be a little nerve wracking.
It got me thinking about what it will be like when I am able to stop active treatment and will be free, but also left to fend for myself more in the medical world and find my new life routine. Again, it’s surprising that this scares me more than it excites me… but I know it’s something many people affected by cancer struggle with after finishing treatment.
What’s been good about the time off is knowing that my tumour hasn’t changed during this period – which gives me hope for if and when I am able to come off treatment.
As of this week, it’s back into the routine again and I’m sure I’ll be longing for another treatment break!